Not Again...

It's a damn cold night. The caresses of the cool breeze played over my face. It leaves me breathless. I'm standing on the bridge with my sisters but my mind is far away. Trying to figure out what life is all about. I see darkness. And it becomes mysterious when I start to feel that the one I want doesn't want me. I am waiting patiently for you. I thought that you will be here right now. However when I look back, there's nothing but the sound of the rain tapping on the ground.
My thoughts...
They ain't still.

My feelings...
They ain't the same.

My body...
It is not ME...

Am I too fat...??

Arggghh... I am so pissed off. Gosh. Look at me...!! Fat!! I have no idea why I worry so much. I already have a wonderful life. My boyfriend loves me a whole lot and my family adores me so much... I have all a girl wants yet I am still so particular with this. Appearance seems to have great significance in my life. You can call me biased but, I abso-freakin'-lutely think that appearance makes or breaks you. I am so damn annoyed whenever I look into the mirror and see the REAL me.

Am I too obsessed?

Appearance indirectly reflect one's personality. To be honest, it is really difficult to change my mentality. I totally agree that we can't judge a book with it's cover, yet I am still so fussy about my look. I think ALL girls will agree with me... Don't you??

My Best Friends...

Thank you for sharing my pain,
Although things would never change,
it helps to know you are near,
to bring me a little cheer.

Thank you...
For bringing me beautiful hues,
to refresh me like the morning dew.
The kind words you say,
brighten up my stormy days.
Please know you are appreciated,
for being there when I am hurt...

Speechless...

The sky is gloomy. Don't have the mood to go out. Sigh... I'm sitting down in my room and starting to dream. Reminiscing what to do with my life. Suddenly, Mom called. She sounded so depressed. I couldn't tell you why she felt that way. And I couldn't help her. I just watched her make the same mistakes again. I couldn't find the reasons why. She has been rejected by Dad and now she can't find what she has left behind. And she is confused. Don't know where she belongs now. With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes. Too many problems. My heart aches when she speaks about it. I just hear her without any voice. Speechless. Lost.

There are a lot of words that I wanted to shout out loud. And tell her how wrong is she. Hoping that she will realise her mistakes. But, I am just too weak. My fragile heart was broken before. And I don't think it could endure another pain. I am nobody to object her deeds. She's my Mom. No matter what happens, I can't change the fact. I love her very much.

I will remain silent. Give a voice of support to her. Never give up on her. A hurting mind in need of emotion. My unspoken words shall bury in here. And it will not jeopardize for what I am today. I will be Mom's beloved daughter now and forever...

Mon Amour...

The next person that I would like to introduce to you: Mr Henry Ong...
It had been almost half a year since we declared our relationship as a couple.
Hmm... Not bad... I am very proud to say that I am happy to share part of my life with him. He touches my heart without notice and brings sunshine to me. Nothing is greater than the rush that comes with his embrace. He is the only one who can make my heart beats faster and slower at the same time. From a very true friendship, we found each other as soul mates and move on into a deeper relationship. Dear Henry, welcome to my life......