Realising...

Each of us hears, but we never realise. Or cares to learn what it implies. A varying change to all the things that happen each day changes me a lot. Remember a moment about all the posts of my blog. It is something like a chemical thought that makes memories untrue. For this few months I have been in a tough time. Glad that it is going to end.

I start up the day with a smile but I always end it with a frown. Why am I feeling so down with my days? People said that I had been very emotional nowadays. Undeniably true. I could not tell you why I felt this way. Because I think I felt it everyday and that I could not help myself. I just watched myself making my whole life dull. I know I should open my eyes wide and look out at the big world.
Make my life happier and enjoy the great thing of life. I promise I will....

Sad for no reason..,.

Today I am sad for no reason. I tried to be good but yet I could not achieve what I need to do. My day just gone away. Besides being stuck between myself, I longed for his call so badly, sigh. (Not a sound from him today.) He must be busy, no time to call but I am sure that its not the time for me to fall. He does not know how I feel no time to tell him no phone call. Everything is because our time are different. His morning is my night where my night is his morning. It is as though we are so far apart. I have to wait for so long, so long for me to say what is in my heart when his away.

Time goes slow, I can not sleep, shame. Good night, my love I cant not say because he never rang this day because he is still in his wonderland.The only word I want to hear is simply: I love you

Some Proverbs to share....

The smart make plans,
The wise don't count on them.
Fools always show their hands,
While the careful hold hidden gems.
The tolerant neither consent nor condemn,
But the intolerant, their tide can't be stemmed.

Which I found it is very true!! It is life's little wisdom. =) Motivates me a lot..

Sheny wants November to end...

I'm bored...
My life is nothing but to study (only exam period)...
Feel bored of it yet stress to the max...
My life's becoming a virtual joke...
My pocket says RM5.00...
I can't earn more if I din study well...

Let me get to the bar
And relief!
Oh no.. I think he's going to be mad at me,
If I go without him...

I'm bored with this exam period...
Can't wait for December...

You really mean to me...

Sisters, I know you've been sad. When I was mad, I know you've been happy. When I knew you were faking a smile, I know you've been compromising. I asked you if something was wrong? But you said no everything is fine, I asked you if you needed me, but you said no I have someone else, I asked you if you needed my help, But you said no I've got it...

Sisters, you mean the world to me, when I really meant it. I know I'm not always there. But when I talk to you, you always tell me what I missed. I'm not happy that much sometimes, but when I'm with you makes my day shine. I'm mad when you use harsh words on me, but I'll never say I hate you, when I really truly do love you...

I really love you. You know that is true. You mean the world to me. I just to let you know that I'm always here for you. I'm here to let you know how you really mean to me...

Confession Part 2...

Perhaps what I am is false to them and I have no faith in what seems to be like in real life. Or perhaps they see what I seem to be and wonder. That I am facing myself conflict in judging people. But what can I do? Should I continue to pretend or pretend not to pretend? I am tired with those judgement. Life goes on. TOUGH, but be patient awhile, be patient, for it takes time to get used to one's space and life...

Confession Part 1...

They were so nice to me. They made me so happy but I was living in a "dark secret". My dark secret was pure bad. I never understood with no REAL friends. Sometimes I found myself thinking about how real they are, how they take advantage on me and then it hit me badly. =( They were so obviously "using" me. I couldn't even say anything. What am I suppose to do then?? Hatred was all I was feeling.

My bestest friends...

dear friends,
how's your life?
it's been a while since I heard you laughed,
I, sometimes, dream of us so clearly,
our past days are memorable and sweet,
the things keep our memory books so full!
the things we left unchanged are so many... =)

dear friends,
our days, our times,
that we used to spend together,
do you still have that memories?
we live our lives now, differently,
I wish all the best for you!
*Hugs and kisses*